I just need to be building. Music, or whatever. I have been focusing a bit more on music for the last few years' stretch, and it has been one of the only go-to "making-stuff"s for a LONG time, but other things come and go too. And when they do, they tend to push rock'n'roll aside for a few weeks, or a few months. I think my brain needs to mix it up a bit.
The only time i get down on myself for production, is when i am not writing music, AND not building anything else either. I need to be more busy than that, and that is one of the longstanding problems i have had with gainful employment in the past: how it affects my physical and mental schedule for building new things. Surely it is a failure of my own in this case for not having the heart/foresight to be able to make money doing something i find interesting. Probably should have gotten an engineering degree when i was young'n. Too bad i hate math.
