I know this was predicted and only furthers the impression that I am incredibly flaky but I don't know what to tell you guys.


I have been doing a lot of personal self-exploration lately and have been too busy being wrapped up into that to bother doing much of anything.
I love you guys and feel like an asshole and almost feel disappointed in myself for not doing this (I know, shit's getting heavy, dawg ) but I am utterly incapable of sitting down and doing this shit.
I realize that I said I was going to and blah blah blah, and this is only going to seem like more of my excuses (which to be quite honest, it really is) but I have to stand up for myself and just say I'm not going to do it.
I am in this odd place mentally right now where I seriously need to prioritize my shit and because of the somewhat fragile emotion condition I have been in I have legitimately had panic attacks about not finishing this goddamn rap song (pathetic, I know).

I don't know what to say other than I am excited to hear Todge's rap and that I'm sorry I flaked out again.


I hope to be musically productive in the near future and hope to be able to contribute to this board's wealth of talent.
I'm just...
Not in that state at all at the moment.

I, of course, expect to be getting some amount of shit from you guys (which is understandable) and the truth is, because I have become so attached to this board and this group of people, I will be truly affected by your comments.
I have been talking to you guys and confiding in several of you for a large chunk of my teenage life.
I just hope you can go fairly easy on me on this one.


Anyways, to end this rant, I just want to say that I love you niggers.


Oh, and INB4IFYOU'REONTHECOMPUTERTYPINGTHISWHYCAN'TUMAKEMUSICZ & TL;DR.

My first rap battle victory! *anime air punch*. It is a hollow one though. I can also relate to the whole flaky thing, although not really in the same way, probably more like commitment issues

It still counts as win, man.
A forfeit still counts.

But I wanted to settle shit properly

My only problem is the creation of the instrumental.
I cannot sit down for more than 5 minutes to try to create something fitting to I must do.
All I want to write is fucked up, depressing music.

When I am ready, I will have a couple of sad-rap in the works.
I just..
I am utterly confused and will continue to be for awhile.
Since coming back from Alaska after three months and having this pre-conception of what life would be like coming back (one which would include a girlfriend ) and then having it completely fall apart infront of me has left be completely disoriented in all aspects of life.
I sometimes forgot who I am and the things that have happened in my life.
I feel incredibly distant from anything that happened before a month ago, the idea that I spent 3 months in Alaska does not register in my head.
This probably has a lot to do with the fact that I smoked pot everyday, multiple times for 3 weeks straight.

Look at this shit, I can't even spell.

Im about to ban you cameron. All that BLAH LBAH BLAH in your OP coulda been a rap, plus I rapped like 3 pages worth of shit in our facebook chat....... YOU BETTER START RAPPING

Most likely Weed really does sap my creativity and motivation to do anything. Since cutting down I've written 2 new songs and written this rap

Yo. When in doubt STEAL THE BEAT.

Srs. Just spit your battle over the lil' wayne track you wanted to in the first place. Post your sad beat as extra credit.

Otherwise, Todge's anime air punch stands. Do you really want to let that anime air punch stand, unchallenged?

Also. Mayhap is it is time to give it a rest, chief.

Clearly this consumption is not having too much of a positive effect at present. Also, a potential trigger for said panic attacks.

I just took a bong rip and think you need to quit weed.

BECAUSE THIS IS SOME BULLSHIT RIGHT HERE CAMERON.

I can provide a beat if it means I gotz me some competition

Yeah I will go record me banging on pots and pans in the kitchen for gods sake.

dis iz fuked up shit, ese'

lul

Okay, I will do it over the Cannon beat.

Yeah, this is definitely the troof.
I am dry now, and have been wanting to buy more but I don't think I'm going to.

wack